"Alis Volat Propriis"

"Alis Volat Propriis"

Words that are close to my heart, and forever on my skin. These three words strike a deep chord in my life and in my heart. 

"I always soared high on confident wings, almost like my feet never touched the ground"

I've always been an independent person through out my life, very head strong and confident as well. Though, there came a time in my life, in which I was none of the characteristics listed above. I had lost myself.

My wings had been clipped.

I became like a trapped bird, caged up and under constant fire. I would cry behind closed doors. I would hurt underneath the masks I wore. I would laugh under fake circumstances. I would believe in something which only existed in a book. I was slowly fading into the shadows of a dark room.

Clipped wings grow weak as they can not fly.

One day something changed in me, as the seasons bring change to the world, drastic yet beautiful. I soon started to realize that the reflection staring back at me was becoming more whole, and full of life again. Over some time, there stood confidence, happiness, faithfullness, and simply me.

I was caged no more.

Standing my ground, not being that doormat; there I was. That changed cause alot of problems, and brought on new sights. I brought myself back to life, and that was not going to change ever again. In doing so, I one day, found myself wearing alot more than my usual. Carrying around more troubles than the world could bear. Hurting unlike ever before.

Mirrors don't lie, and concealer doesn't hide everything.

At the end of my rope.. I terrorized the walls of my cage, I had to get out. I had to leave and not look back. I couldn't think twice about what was going to happen, I just had to do it. I had to go and go far away

Left an empty cage.

Getting back on my own two feet was hard and a bit shaky at times. I lost my balance frequently, but now I am standing strongly, and on my own two feet.

The beauty of extended wings.

Now, moving forward, and at the most vibrant and fullest I have ever bee in this world; I carry on. I don't take a single day for granted, and I live with no regrets. I love as hard as I know how to, because I will never know where the end is. I am happy with this outcome and faithfully welcome the future and whatever it may bring. I found my voice, my faith, my wings- there's no stopping or changing it now.

She Flies on Her Own Wings.